onsdag, april 21, 2010

"She had something on her mind"

It's only 08.00 and I've been awake for more than 3 hours! I woke up after a dream knowing I just had to paint a picture. Funny. I've had a huge lack of inspiration for weeks now, but this dream (and a great teraphy session yesterday) kicked my butt and made me run down the stairs to my studio. Not only did I knew exactly what to paint - I also felt a growing conciousness: I have to create. That's my gift. A gift from me to me. Using my creativity makes me able to breath. I need to express myself - that's how I live. To hell with all the stupid voices inside my head that are telling me that I'm not talented enough, or that I'm talking too much, laughing too loud... I'm breathing through my expressions.

Sometimes words are too hard to say out loud. Okey, right now I just have to accept that. But that doesn't mean it's forever impossible. I just need some practise. And a great way of practisising is to use other kinds of expressions. I've found myself a perfect song that says the words I need to say, and I even dare myself to sing along... It is pure magic. The song works in mysterious ways... Gives me strength and power.

And during my deams I'm given the "stories" I need right now. My dreams are the best way of communicate with my inner self. I just have to listen. And believe. Like this morning, when I woke up knowing that painting would give me both joy, peace and selfesteem.

These experiences make me trust the prosess. I'm not strong enough yet, but I'll be there. When the time is right. And in the meanwhile I'll keep on practisising.

The picture is inspired by a norwegian saying: She held something in her heart. (In English: She had something on her mind.) I've played with the background - mixing several techniques and colors, but I wanted the picture to be as simple as possible. I know the whole situation feels ovewhelming - like a chaotic mix of techniques and colors - but in the end it's all very simple: Listen to your heart. That's it.

A detail picture of the background...

Wish you all a great day!
Remember to express what you need to express - in either way. It may make you feel more alive.

Love,
Åshild

10 kommentarer

Lena Katrine sa...

Nydelig, sart, varmt, ekte og ærlig!
Godt at du har funnet en veg å takle følelser og tanker på - unner deg kun det beste vet du :)
Glad i deg, vennen!
Ha en fortsatt strålende dag, og ta vare på deg selv!
Go'klem

Lise Dagrun sa...

Herlig, Åshild! Ord og bilder etter min smak, dette!

Anita Thorsen sa...

Dette var herlig å se. Go Åshild, go Åshild, go Åshild!(se for deg armbevegelsene og rompevrikken når jeg sier det) *fnis*

Klem

Kari sa...

Bildet traff meg midt i hjertet...
Herlige farger, former og sarthet.

Kari :-)

Gunn (Merete) sa...

Nydelig Åshild, og sånn er det faktisk bare. Kos deg videre i prosessen du.
Klem Gunn*

Ellen* sa...

Fantastisk flott bilde, Åshild! Du lager virkelig ting med sjel i! Ønsker deg en flott dag og flommende inspirasjon!:o)

Kort og Søm sa...

Veldig fint bilde.
Hilsen Fredrikke :o)

Iren sa...

Utrolig sart og flott bilde du har laga igjen Åshild :) Alt var bare så perfekt, farger super herlige :)

Ønsker deg bare alt godt :)

Varme gode klemmer til deg fra meg :)

Kaia sa...

Fantastisk flott bilde.
Nydelige farger, og FOR EN FLOTT bakgrunn. Du er så dyktig, og egentlig er jeg litt glad for disse stemmene dine. De gjør jo at VI FÅR NYTE ALLE DINE VAKRE KUNSTVERK.
Kan du ikke sende litt av ditt talent til Sauda, kunne godt tenkt meg å malt noen bilder......
Klem fra Kaia

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